Today isn't shaping up to be any better. I try to be happy. I'm trying to do better. Ever since the day I wrote that long blog. Sometimes it just doesn't work. I feel stuck, like nothing is ever going to change, becuase I'm stagnant. I can't stir anything up because I'm not moving. I'd like to move, but I think I've forgotten how. Or maybe I've never known. I feel like a pitcher of water. Everyone dumps their stuff onto me, but I can't move unless someone picks me up. Is this just me not trying to change my situation? I don't think so, but I'm missing something. I don't know what it is. I need something big. Something drastic. I've got something in mind.