....I may be dumb, but I'm not a dweeb. I'm just a sucker with no self esteem....

"So, I'm getting married today."

I got in my car, looking quickly at the clock. My mom would be there of course. I was going to say, "I do." I'm sure she's going to cry. Another one of her babies all grown up.

Of course she was going to be there, this was all her idea.

The countryside flew by my window as I raced to the church, or the field, or wherever my wedding was supposed to be. Mom took care of everything, including asking this girl to marry me. I couldn't help but be a little nervous. She picked a great girl, one of the first girls that I ever wanted to be with, one of the first girls that got away. My mom had somehow convinced her to come back.

Krissy.

Or was it Erin?

I guess I'll find out when I get there.

I stopped at grandma's on the way there to pick up my tuxedo. Mom picked it out. I guess we were going with a beach themed wedding. That's cool, I've always wanted one of those. I had a little time left over, so I made myself this big ice cream sundae and turned on the TV. This old black and white movie was on, and there was this kid and his new wife eating an ice cream sundae. I looked around me, there was no one to share my sundae with, but there would be soon.

We were going to get the cottage for the night. The wedding must be at the beach in Marine City. I got in the car and headed over there. But something happened. I made wrong turn. On purpose. Suddenly it hit me as I was doing 75 down MC Highway away from my own wedding... what the hell was I about to do? Why was I going to get married to Krissy or Erin, both of which were already married, when the feelings I had for them were long gone? How did I let myself get talked into this? I'm sure neither one of us really wanted to marry each other.

As I flew down the road my phone rang. I knew it was my mom wondering where I was. I hoped this wouldn't hurt her feelings. I couldn't think of what to say, I mean I know she was trying to make me happy in some weird twisted way.

Suddenly a wave of relief came over me as I realized it wasn't my cell phone ringing. It was my home phone, and it woke me up.

JoFish19: half gallon... how much is that in ounces
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Nothing ruins my entire day quicker than being woken up by the telephone. Today, it's happened twice. The first time it was Jeff, so it's ok, but if I get woken up by a telemarketer, I'm out for blood.

From John Barb's AIM Profile.

i go to school
i write exams
if i pass if i fail if i drop out
does anyone give a damn
and if they do
they'll soon forget
cause it wont take much for me to show 'em my life aint over yet

This is my fourth post today.

That is all.

Today I got up early. I'm driving Charlie to work. Also I'm going to drink coffee. Also I don't work until one, and so I usually would've stayed up late and edited the film, and not gotten up until noon. But I told Charlie I'd drive him to work, and I'm going to drink some coffee, right after I find my pants. Head! Pants! Now!

Seriously, where are my pants?

If I wanted to print this blog as a text document, it would be in the neighbourhood of 243 pages. I spelled neighbourhood like I'm from England. Or Canada.

I'm not.

I've been doing this blog for two and a half years. No one reads it anymore, do they....

If you're here, leave me a shout out, so I know if this page is worth doing anymore.

"Patience" by Guns N Roses


Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt
You're in my heart now

Said, woman, take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said, sugar, make it slow
And we come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(patience)
Mm, yeah

I sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now
I'll wait, dear
Sometimes I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love
There's one more thing to consider

Said, woman, take it slow
And things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said, sugar, take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes
To make it, We won't fake it,
I'll never break it
'cause I can't take it


...little patience, mm yeah, mm yeah
need a little patience, yeah
just a little patience, yeah
some more patience, yeah
need some patience, yeah
could use some patience, yeah
gotta have some patience, yeah
all it takes is patience,
just a little patience
is all you need

I BEEN WALKIN' THE STREETS AT NIGHT
JUST TRYIN' TO GET IT RIGHT
HARD TO SEE WITH SO MANY AROUND
YOU KNOW I DON'T LIKE
BEING STUCK IN THE CROWD
AND THE STREETS DON'T CHANGE
BUT BABY THE NAME
I AIN'T GOT TIME FOR THE GAME
'CAUSE I NEED YOU
YEAH, YEAH, BUT I NEED YOU
OO, I NEED YOU
WHOA, I NEED YOU
OO, ALL THIS TIME